The Feeling Of Loss
Hello World.
Today I have to share some bad news. Last night Carries Uncle Lee decided to end his own life. The call came in around 10:00 pm from her Uncle Ricky, Uncle Lee had shot his self in the abdomen and died from his wounds.
Uncle Lee was a great guy who loved everyone and would help you if he could. He always made me laugh he had a knack for it. He could make you laugh even when you didn’t want to. He was a great person to be around.
Lee had issues with alcoholism, and drank daily almost all his adult life. He did have periods were would stop, but would start back up again. I think Lee’s love was so deep, that when that love was taken away or broken it would send him into a deep depression that was over shadowed by his drinking. It was his mechanism for copping with hard things in life or just away to escape the way he really felt inside.
It doesn’t matter what the person’s flaws are when they are family! You love them because they are family, so you over look their flaws and except them for who they are and what they do. No one is perfect if you are then you are a self-diluted self-absorbed person, and are most likely not normal in anyway.
This is the second Uncle that Carries side of the family has lost in a year. One was accidental, and the other was suicide. No matter how or when it happens when it does it always seems so sudden and to soon! You can’t replace their unique personality nor can you understand why it happened when their life ended. All you know is you now feel this empty feeling inside. You start to do the, I should have or could have scenarios in your head. The fact is nothing can be done to change what has already happened. All you can do now is remember what that person meant to you, how much you loved them and how much you will really miss them!
We need to remember, that no matter what a family member maybe doing that might not sit well with us, or that we just down right disagree with, that life is very short and we are not promised the next second let alone the another day! So don’t find yourself in the “should have or could have scenarios”. Forgive the ones you love, except them for who they are and what they do no matter what, and tell them you love them.
WE ALL LOVE YOU UNCLE LEE! YOU WILL BE MISSED GREATLY!
