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I used this post to wish my little girl a happy birthday. I love her with all my heart. She was born July 31st 2000 in columbus Oh. She was the little girl Carrie always wanted. Chantell had it rough as a baby, we lived in a older house which I think let her and the boys get sick all the time. Chantell was, is and always will be my little princesses. I remeber her so well as a baby. All the memories I have will live with me in my heart forever. And even though she is convinced she has to butts I think she is the smartest little girl in our house. Check out her pictures from the birthday party.

Chantell Birthday

Dear Baby,

“Hi, Baby, I love you,” that’s always how we start. Those five simple words always bring a smile to my face and song to my heart. I am just writing this here because it’s the only way I know that I can shout to the world I love you!

I know things have been rough between us with all the time we spend apart, and the way I have been acting lately. But we have been together going on 14 years, and they have been the best years of my life. And I know I would love to spend the rest of my life loving you, and being with you.

I can remember all the times we were together good and bad. I remember taking walks with you taking that picture in the mall in the photo booth when we were young. I was happy then and am still, as long as you are in my life.

I will always put a special spot of you in my heart. No matter where I go, I carry you in me. I’m hoping that it is you, Carrie, who feels the same way as I do. Remember, I love you!

There are no words to express the gratitude I feel in my heart that our hearts have come to dwell together, as one. You are my life, my heart, my soul. You are my best friend. You are my one true love. The day we met was fate. Our lives intertwining was fate. You are my destiny. I love you more today than I did yesterday, and I’ll love you more tomorrow than I do today. Love is the only thing that makes life worth living. Your love. With all my heart I am forever yours.

I want you also to know that you have become someone very special in my life and I thank you for welcoming me into yours. Thank you for filling my life with love and making each day so wonderful.

I love with every heartbeat and my every breath.

Love always,

Phillip the one who is always there>

HEY HEY HEY, today is Sherrie’s birthday.

She is not a KAPPELL but I would not hold that against her. To me she is still well I guess form what I was told to say, she is family.

I have known Sherrie since she was my daughter’s age. I have seen her grow up into a. . . . Person? No, oh wait a young adult that is it.

Today she is the big ONE-EIGHT. I remember when she was just about six and she would follow Carrie and April around everywhere. All she wanted to do was follow those two retards around. (Sorry babe but I call them as I see them). Anyway Sherrie and Carrie were and are still to this day very much alike in their attitudes for the most part. (Probably why they hate each other most of the time)

From what I understand from mom and dad is that both Carrie and Sherrie were, and are for the most part miracle babies. First Carrie then Sherrie. Mom only has a half of an ovary from what I remember of what I was told.

I have see Sherrie grow up form a little girl. She has and always will be like the sister I already had but still I always wanted. So if she ever needs something she should expect the same as the rest of my sisters, never called never listed to, and never seen. Just kidding little “S”, maybe . . . Now she is on the verge of becoming a full all out adult. She will be responsible for her decision and reap the benefits and the anguish that comes with them. She is a very smart person who if she applies herself can accomplish anything! I hope and wish her the best in life. I believe in you!!

My two cents on your life.

1. Never make any decision without trying to think it through. Think about the pro’s and con’s of this decision. And make sure you are ready to except any and all responsibility of that decision good or bad.
2. live life to the fullest enjoy and appreciate ever day and everyone around you, life is to short not to enjoy it. Live life with no regrets.

I love Sherrie with all the over protectiveness as a big brother as if she were my own flesh and blood. I know she will do well in life. We will always be there for you no matter what, and will love you no matter what. Keep this in mind, no matter what you are going through or what you have done, your family will always be there for you.

Love you little “S” happy 18^th birthday.

Life and the decisions we make are ruff in itself. We all have been faced with making decisions we do it every day. Some are trivial and are without for the most part consequences. But then there are good decisions and there are bad ones. The good ones are easy to deal with because the only real regret is that I should have done it sooner, or just a little better.

The bad decisions are the worst to deal with and handle. For the most part I would say we know when we are going to make a bad decision that we will regret. How we know is simple. If you ever have found yourself trying to convince yourself that it is not a bad decision or, that you lie, deceive, or trick yourself into it, well then you can expect to have a bad experience.

Today the Kappell family had what I will only say as one of its so far, most regrettable days. You know one of those heart-sinking feelings. It is hard to accept curtain things at times, especially the ones you know you want to forget, but will never be able to. So you do the only thing you can, learn for this situation and move on. The hardest part I think is being able to see what you did wrong, so you can learn from it.

Moving on is very hard to do; most people aren’t ready to do what it takes to move on. I think what that is, is to be able to except the fate of the situation and realize there is nothing you can do to fix it. You can however make sure you never do it again, by admitting your mistake to yourself and know that what is done is done. Take a deep breath and move on! !

There is no sense in dwelling on your past, it will only pull you down and hurt and destroy you and the one around you. I am not saying forget what happened, just be able to move on when it is time.

HIP-HIP HORAY, HIP-HIP HORAY, some how it is Joshua’s 11^th Birthday! First I must say that you must have a guardian angle on both your shoulders to have made it this far. So what I got you to ensure your next birthday is I got you a third guardian angel his name is DUR!!

So let me share with you the clearest moments of your birth with you. Are you ready because the night before you were born was a little crazy.

Ok, it was May 5^th 2000 just about 8pm or so. We were staying with my mom who at this point had last her mind literally. Your mom (Carrie) kept saying she felt funny but neither one of us knew what was the deal. Carrie’s mom and dad were living with Wendy at the time so we could not just ask them. Well anyway your mom and I went to bed, well I went to bed your mom was up all night taking baths.

Well morning time rolled around, and I am pretty sure it was early. We headed over to where her mom and dad were staying. The first thing out of mom’s mouth was your probably in labor. Then we timed the contrition and sure enough you were on the way. So we went to hospital where I managed to aggravate you mom, I don’t know how seeing how that is nearly imposable, I did it by rubbing her shoulder until she yelled at me!

Well sometime later you came out. The doctor drop you on your head and then kick you when he tried to pick you back up! Just kidding I did all that. . . Not really. Of course I cut your cord. Well the time came we went home, to my mom’s place. Were we had it pretty bad but still we had or son and each other.

I remember your hair was so blond it was transparent. Your long skinny legs and round head. Man what a looker you were. . . NOT! ! ! Just kidding son. You grew up so fast, oh wait you still are, will you hurry up PLEASE! Anyway back to the story, I remember your first steps with your little legs it was to funny I never could figure out how they held your big head up. I remember going to the park with you. (Chicken Park). That was funny you did not want to touch the sand at all we lowered you down and you lift your legs as high as you could. You did everything fast, walked off the bottle talked well I think your sister beat your record on talking. We had to beat you to sleep I mean really hit you in order for you to fall a sleep.

And now look at you 11 years old my first born. WOW I can’t believe it 11 years old. You are a bright kid Josh full of life and spunk. (Piss and Vinegar)! I know you can do anything you put you mind to and focus on. You have been blessed with a ability to make people laugh with your crazy antics and silly ways. Remember though there is a time and place for it. My advise to my eldest child, to never lose the spark you have. I look forward to this next year of adventures with you

I love you son. I know you will do great things in your life, or I will kick your butt.

By the way I would not turn you back on me because I plan on hitting you 11 times with a mini bat!!

Happy 11^th birthday and thanks for making me feel that much older than I wanted to.

Well today I had my first minor car accident since the crash with the Olds Mobile. Carrie was pregnant with Anthony; Joshua was about 18 months at the time. I ran a stop sign and we were smashed into. We were in a residential Neiborhood and we were slammed across the street into a wall. We were hit on the passenger side where Carrie was sitting, MAN talk about being scared. She was 6-7 months pregnant. I was supposed to go to jail for suspended license no insurance. Carrie was hurt so bad she had to walk backwards anywhere she went for the next two months. We were so broke we could not even buy food to eat. Times were different then. We never knew what was going to happen next. Power turned off evicted from the place we lived. We were one kid in and on the way. We were just kids our self with no idea of what to do or what we were doing.

Would I change it if I could? No how would I appreciate what I have learned and experienced. It is weird I have money, my license the bills are paid, and yet it seems like the stress never ends. The pressures of people depending on you can weigh you down. I think it is these situation that bring out the best in us. We fight to push forward and to better things. It is like seeing dominos falling and trying to run in front of the to stop them only to make it worse. Let them fall where them may and deal with it the best way you can.

When times are tuff and life seems ruff, don’t give up you have to keep fighting and to learn from your experiences so you know not to make the same mistakes. But most likely you will. . .

Life is full of circumstances. And for the most part for me they have sucked. Oh course I say that and well oh course I mean it.

I always ask myself how did I get myself into this mess? What did I do to get here? Well I use to blame everybody for my problems. I had made myself a victim of my own circumstance and managed to find away to blame everyone and everything around me. Well imagine that, it did not make any thing better or change a single thing.

Then one day someone kind of pointed me in the right direction. They said there are circumstances and then there is you, and nothing else. And all you can do is deal with ones you can, and the ones you can’t well you do the best you can. And the more I thought about it the more it made sense. BAM, it hits me I am in this mess because of how I dealt with the circumstances or how I DIDN’T deal with it! ! !

So one day I had what is referred to as an epiphany. An awaking with in myself, I said NO MORE will I lye down and be defeated by the circumstance without making an effort to deal with them. So I decided to do what I could to change them. And I did and still do. I managed to pretty much keep myself moving in a good direction. Well so I thought.

The problem is my awaking or epiphany was limited to my financial problems. What I had not figured out was, that I was not doing the same for my relationship with my Wife/Girlfriend. Nor was I doing it with the rest of my family my kids my mother, brother, sister, in-laws, cousins and of course my friends.

Well this awaking or epiphany was mind blowing it in compassed my whole life. I had not realized that I was letting other people create and deal with my circumstances, which made things worse. The thing is that I did not even know it, until this time again someone different this time had pointed this out. Controlling your situation by dealing with your circumstance puts you in control of your life and the direction you want to take it.

It is oh course an EVENTUALITY that we will have to deal with the circumstance of our current situations. The out come of dealing with our circumstance GOOD or BAD is not the issue, the out come is what it is no more no less. It is how you react to the out come how you handle it, what you learn from it what you take from it. If you don’t take anything away from it either way, then you have learned nothing from it and are domed to repeat your mistakes until you do. But if you learn form it change the way you see and deal with your circumstances than you have truly learned to open your eyes and control what ever lies in front of you.

I am still very young and realize that the possibilities are infinite in their outcome. With experience comes knowledge understanding that knowledge leads to wisdom! I hope I live long enough to reach that level of understanding in all things small and great.

Oh of course I realize that my personal writings are incomplete. But than again I have not completely figured them out either. But that is life, and we all know how life is, well I hope we do.

This is dedicated to my mother whom I love for all her faults and her greatness, I see things in her that I don’t think she does. I hope one day she will.

I love you mom with all my heart and all my sole ! !

Phillip

Today marks the 9th, yes-9th birthday for my middle child Anthony “Phillip” Kappell. On this special day I would like to say Congratulations for making it this far, and good luck on your journey to your 10th birthday you are going to need it.

I remeber the day he was born like it was nine years ago. I remember Grandma, Grandpa and April and everyone being there and also I remember your mother using a mid-wife for your birth. It was a little weird and creepy the way she sacrificed a live chicken before she would deliver you. Just joking around. Although she did throw you right on your mother chest after you came out. I cut you cord and nearly passed out doing it. Then they took you over to the baby oven and cleaned you up. I hogged you to myself the same as I have done with my other children.

I remember rocking you to sleep in your baby carrier in living room of the apartment on 67th and Bethany Rd in Glendale. I would rock you to sleep all the time, I was so good in fact that I could rock that carrier and be a sleep on the couch at the same time. From there you grew up so fast.

It was not long after you were born we moved to Ohio. From there you grew from a snot nose baby to a Blues Clues obsessed troll. Always wearing this blues clues hat and saying pow pow pow he’s got a silly hat he’s got a silly hat. I have home movies to prove it. I remeber your first day of school and your first set of stitches and your second right in the same spot. I remeber your first time you rode you bike by yourself after we took off your training wheels. I also remember your the first time you said your first word, and I have tried to shut you up ever since to no avail.

We moved back to the great state of Arizona were your new adventures took off. We have had allot of great time with each other, and together as a family. From me just being your dad, friend and all the way to your basketball coach. I am looking forwarded to seeing you becoming a great man.

I love you Anthony with all my heart and sole. I am proud of you and all you accomplishments.

Happy Ninth Birthday.

Oh yeah come here and get your nine smacks!