Kappell Family Blog

Life is full of circumstances. And for the most part for me they have sucked. Oh course I say that and well oh course I mean it.

I always ask myself how did I get myself into this mess? What did I do to get here? Well I use to blame everybody for my problems. I had made myself a victim of my own circumstance and managed to find away to blame everyone and everything around me. Well imagine that, it did not make any thing better or change a single thing.

Then one day someone kind of pointed me in the right direction. They said there are circumstances and then there is you, and nothing else. And all you can do is deal with ones you can, and the ones you can’t well you do the best you can. And the more I thought about it the more it made sense. BAM, it hits me I am in this mess because of how I dealt with the circumstances or how I DIDN’T deal with it! ! !

So one day I had what is referred to as an epiphany. An awaking with in myself, I said NO MORE will I lye down and be defeated by the circumstance without making an effort to deal with them. So I decided to do what I could to change them. And I did and still do. I managed to pretty much keep myself moving in a good direction. Well so I thought.

The problem is my awaking or epiphany was limited to my financial problems. What I had not figured out was, that I was not doing the same for my relationship with my Wife/Girlfriend. Nor was I doing it with the rest of my family my kids my mother, brother, sister, in-laws, cousins and of course my friends.

Well this awaking or epiphany was mind blowing it in compassed my whole life. I had not realized that I was letting other people create and deal with my circumstances, which made things worse. The thing is that I did not even know it, until this time again someone different this time had pointed this out. Controlling your situation by dealing with your circumstance puts you in control of your life and the direction you want to take it.

It is oh course an EVENTUALITY that we will have to deal with the circumstance of our current situations. The out come of dealing with our circumstance GOOD or BAD is not the issue, the out come is what it is no more no less. It is how you react to the out come how you handle it, what you learn from it what you take from it. If you don’t take anything away from it either way, then you have learned nothing from it and are domed to repeat your mistakes until you do. But if you learn form it change the way you see and deal with your circumstances than you have truly learned to open your eyes and control what ever lies in front of you.

I am still very young and realize that the possibilities are infinite in their outcome. With experience comes knowledge understanding that knowledge leads to wisdom! I hope I live long enough to reach that level of understanding in all things small and great.

Oh of course I realize that my personal writings are incomplete. But than again I have not completely figured them out either. But that is life, and we all know how life is, well I hope we do.

This is dedicated to my mother whom I love for all her faults and her greatness, I see things in her that I don’t think she does. I hope one day she will.

I love you mom with all my heart and all my sole ! !

Phillip

Today marks the 9th, yes-9th birthday for my middle child Anthony “Phillip” Kappell. On this special day I would like to say Congratulations for making it this far, and good luck on your journey to your 10th birthday you are going to need it.

I remeber the day he was born like it was nine years ago. I remember Grandma, Grandpa and April and everyone being there and also I remember your mother using a mid-wife for your birth. It was a little weird and creepy the way she sacrificed a live chicken before she would deliver you. Just joking around. Although she did throw you right on your mother chest after you came out. I cut you cord and nearly passed out doing it. Then they took you over to the baby oven and cleaned you up. I hogged you to myself the same as I have done with my other children.

I remember rocking you to sleep in your baby carrier in living room of the apartment on 67th and Bethany Rd in Glendale. I would rock you to sleep all the time, I was so good in fact that I could rock that carrier and be a sleep on the couch at the same time. From there you grew up so fast.

It was not long after you were born we moved to Ohio. From there you grew from a snot nose baby to a Blues Clues obsessed troll. Always wearing this blues clues hat and saying pow pow pow he’s got a silly hat he’s got a silly hat. I have home movies to prove it. I remeber your first day of school and your first set of stitches and your second right in the same spot. I remeber your first time you rode you bike by yourself after we took off your training wheels. I also remember your the first time you said your first word, and I have tried to shut you up ever since to no avail.

We moved back to the great state of Arizona were your new adventures took off. We have had allot of great time with each other, and together as a family. From me just being your dad, friend and all the way to your basketball coach. I am looking forwarded to seeing you becoming a great man.

I love you Anthony with all my heart and sole. I am proud of you and all you accomplishments.

Happy Ninth Birthday.

Oh yeah come here and get your nine smacks!